Random

I don’t know whether saying I love you or I hate you, will resolve everything. It’s not what it is supposed to be. I ended up not knowing what I actually feel, and he hates me already. I don’t know I should apologize or what. I mean why should I saying I’m sorry where I didn’t do anything at all?! I know it’s hard. I mean I have to deal with a lot of thing, and it’s not easy. Life is tough, love is cruel. I see what I didn’t see before. I know now that maybe it’s not the best way to tell myself that I’m all grown up. It’s the part of growing up, being mature and knowing something that’s hard to be understood. I guess, I’m not giving myself the best answers. I won’t give up, I don’t want to. But I can’t believe hearing my heart screams so painfully every time I fight and I can’t bear it. Not any more of sounds. I hate seeing myself in front of the mirror and see my reflection, so weak and sad. Pretending that I don’t know about things, makes it harder to be forgotten. Tired of crying all night, colliding my dream into sounds, and still can’t believe what I’d seen today. A broken heart, the same one everyday I hold in my hand. It’s almost die, but I can’t stop it from dying. And so my feelings.